Oh, you thought this was about spiritual brokenness before God. Well, it sort of is. But mostly it’s about the results of everything breaking. First, the vacuum cleaner. Not really a big deal. After holding it together with duct tape (yeah!) and wood screws, it finally quit. Result: paying for a new vacuum cleaner. Then, the car. At 168,000 miles, some things begin to break. In this case, several things. $528 later the air conditioning functions again (a necessity in Florida). OK, so we swallow some unexpected bills this month. But wait (like the commercial), more to come. Next came the hot tub (still broken) and then the big one – our central air conditioning system. Shorted to ground. Compressor blown. New system – with lots of help from JT and the people at his company – $6000. Oh my, I don’t make that much in a month or more. Now what do we do? Then my son returns to college after knee surgery – $2500. Then several appliances quit. Fortunately April is about over. Maybe May will be better. There’s not much left to break.
So, by the time we get to the end of April, we are upside down by nearly $10,000. Not so bad if you can spread it out over a long time, but what is broken can’t wait to be fixed unless we want to live in a tent in the summer heat. Physical brokenness leads directly to spiritual brokenness. “Lord, what are we supposed to do now?”
The Hebrew word for “wait” is hakah. It is not a passive verb. Like all Hebrew verbs, waiting is movement or action. How is this possible? Don’t we just sit in the doctor’s office, waiting for something to happen? Don’t we say to ourselves, “Why do I have to wait so long when I could be doing something?” Apparently, waiting is not doing in our world. But it is doing something in the Hebrew world. It is traveling on the continuum from frenetic activity to calm, expectant trust. Both ends of the continuum are active. Waiting is active expectation and anticipation. It is the action of holding your breath in anticipation of God’s arrival. He is there, just over the horizon, and if we could just stand a little taller, we would see Him coming. We can hardly sit passively still with this kind of attitude. We are like the maidens who hear the arrival of the bridegroom. We are ready to jump up and go at a moment’s notice. We are sitting in the doctor’s office on the edge of the chair. The engine is racing but the clutch isn’t engaged. And when we do pop the clutch, look out! Whoosh! We are off.
A year of brokenness provides lots of opportunity for drag strip faith. Any second God will drop the green light and we’ll be in full throttle, tires burning up the pavement, heading toward the finish line. But until the green light comes on, we wait! All of the experiences (and events) that prepare us for the green light are part of the waiting process. They are just elements of the explosive run to the finish. In other words, the active ingredients of waiting begin with the first moment of slowing down. That’s when the vacuum quit. Everything else simply provided the grounds for active waiting.
You can’t win a drag race if you’re not revving the engine at a stand-still. Just wait to pop the clutch.
PS – I guess we weren’t quite done. Now the roofer is here because the water is leaking into the house. Oh, I can’t wait to pop the clutch.

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