Lost Along the Way
I am a stranger on earth. Hide not your commandments from me. Psalm 119:19 (Abraham Heschel translation)
Hide – Where are you going? Ah, the second most important question of life. The angel of the Lord asked Hagar precisely this, and she could not answer him. Can you? Do you really know where you are going? We have a tendency to reply with our version of goals and objectives, but I don’t think that’s what the angel was asking. He was asking about the final direction, the true meaning, the ultimate concern of life. What is your life really all about?
Before you try to answer this version of the question, perhaps it’s worth considering the psalmist’s description. “I am a stranger on earth.” That seems quite odd, doesn’t it? After all, Man was made for the earth. Angels might be at home in heaven, but men won’t be. They are earth-creatures, made from the ground which they are to serve. At the end, it will be a “new earth” abode, not a celestial floating home in the sky. So how can we be strangers in a place designed for us? The answer has to do with how we live, not where we live. We are strangers because we don’t know how to live in the place we are supposed to inhabit. In other words, Sartre was right about this one thing: we don’t fit here. But it’s not because we are rational in an irrational universe. No, we don’t fit because we have lost the directions about how the universe works. We don’t fit because we are trying to write the owner’s manual while we are only renters. We can’t see the big picture. As a result, we are constantly discovering we are off track. The psalmist knows what we need. We need directions. But we don’t need our directions. That’s like asking a tourist how to find an address in a large city. What we need is directions from the one who laid out the streets and recorded the map. “Don’t hide Your instructions from me,” because if you do, I will never find my way.
You and I desperately need advice from the One who made this place. How do we get it? Heschel provides an insightful remark. You don’t start with the owner’s notes. You must start with the owner’s presence. You must start by engaging in conversation. “What marks the act of prayer is the decision to enter and face the presence of God. To pray means to expose oneself to Him, to His judgment.”[1] In other words, the first thing needed to find your way is to admit to the mapmaker that you are lost. This first thing is to talk with the mapmaker, not run to the store to purchase a map. In fact, unless you first have the conversation with the mapmaker, you won’t even know which map to purchase. He knows which one you need because he knows where you are now, but you don’t know where you are, so how can a map make any difference? The psalmist is asking for God to provide more than a map. He is asking for God to be present and point to the “You Are Here” arrow on the map. Torah doesn’t begin with map instructions. It begins with “You Are Here.” And the only way to know where you are is to ask.
Topical Index: Psalm 119:19, directions, Torah
[1] Abraham Heschel, Man’s Quest for God, p. 61.
So much beauty. Thank you for hanging out with Heschel so much, and for including us!
In survival manuals, the first instruction for when you are lost is to admit that you are. This may seem absurd, but the human brain does not like to admit that it does not know, or that it does not know what to do about it. This inability causes people to panic, to act against their own survival, and to make it harder to be found. People, especially small children, commonly tend to hide from searchers. They are afraid to admit that they are ‘wrong’, but older people do it too! Crazy.
You have to admit you are lost before you can ask for directions. So true! For the record, I think women seem to do a little better in this department. Slightly better. Perhaps. In the Garden (where I never seem to be able to leave, because everything of note for us seems to have gone down there) it was Eve who admitted that she did not know the difference between good and evil. She did the wrong thing about it, true, but admitting it was a start. I think her mistake was in deciding to ask directions from a snake, but in my lifetime I know I have made that mistake a few times, too. Live and learn is what we got stuck with when we ate from that Tree, and we have been stumbling about with the lights out ever since. Now the only way back is by faith. And asking. Our choice, though. As always.
It’s remarkable to me that so many just don’t respond
to the constant drawing of the Father. His evidence is
overwhelmingly everywhere, by His loving design.
Just a simple “Are you there?” inquiry can enlighten
and revolutionize one’s life.
But alas, the rigid and possessive insolation of the “self”
secretly fears they may actually hear an answer!
Thanks Skip we are basking in Heschel with you in our own personal reading and it’s glorious. I concur with this perspective having been saying for the last few years to many I encounter “The kingdom of God and the kingdom of this present world system are simultaneous coexisting, but mutually exclusive.” With that thought I bring to mind the image of Yeshua standing with his arm outstretched saying, “The Kingdom of YHVA is at hand”. It really is; just a slight side step from your current position, a simple change of mind, a change of heart; a new paradigm…
YHVA=YHVH need to get the Holy name of the King of Heavens Armies spelled correctly…My apologizes.
LOST ALONG THE WAY! So many have stepped off the narrow path , and seem to be struggling to get back on,if we ask we will receive , if we knock he will open.butwe have to be sincere in our request, and he will be our guide into all truth thanks for today’s post Skip!
Heavenly Father,
Everyday in this complex world I am lost. Help me be like the psalmist and come into the Face of Your presence, be exposed, experience the weight of your Judgment. Show me where I am. It’s then I will begin to see your great mercy and to properly use Your Map.
“O how happy is the man whose strength is in You, those whose hearts focus on UPWARD PATHS. Those who pass through the Valley of Thorns, they transform it into a wellspring; also the rain will cloak with blessings. They advance from strength to strength; each one will appear before God in Zion.” Ps 84:6-9 (Hebrew Bible – English Bible is off by one verse I believe)
Those roads we truly seek are not the roads we see with our own eyes and intellect; we need the “upward paths.” I often miss them because they head off through the “Valley of Thorns” and I am too busy looking for the bridge that crosses over THAT valley. But it is those upward paths through the valley of thorns that transform the valley and ultimately lead from strength to strength to appear in HIs presence! That is the path I truly want!
Notice the “upward paths” go through the valley – a picture of the upside-down Kingdom of YHVH
“‘Don’t hide Your instructions from me,’ because if you do, I will never find my way.” Oh Amen!
This post reminds me of how I clung to my God as a wee child in my crib some 55 years ago! (Didn’t know a thing about a Bible; only my Maker’s HUGE POWERFUL PROTECTIVE LOVING Hands. I capitalize those words to demonstrate the difference in His Size in my life compared to everything else around me in that abusive childhood home.) My God Who Made Me knew everything about me; it was so easy to just converse with him all day long. We would especially talk together at night when “now I lay me down to sleep.” (Maybe His (c)hesed drown out the loud craziness of a home atmosphere smothered by an alcoholic spouse-abusing parent.)
When I became and orphan as a teenager, our walks alone together, God and me, became much less carefree but I think His Voice became louder. While I was forced to not speak of Him in my new home and I was surrounded by new abominations, my God NEVER left me. When I finally succumbed to the direction of those in charge of me and started making life decisions that pleased them, THAT’S when I lost “the map.” I found it again years and tons of self-inflicted pain later.
Praise YHVH in and through everything. His (c)hesed is for us!
Wow…another thought provoking TW from you, Skip. You never ceases to amaze me. You seem to have a direct line of communication and inspiration from the King. Everyday you offer something new and challenging for your readers….have been doing this for years. Your mind (and heart) are amazing and it’s intriguing to try and comprehend your drive, your intensity and your level of commitment to understanding “where we are going” and “what God demands of us. Thank you for including us on your journey and for allowing God to use you to reach out to many people…worldwide!!!
Skip thank you for the reminder that it is not about the end result but about beginning to be that what God intended for us. How many times do we miss the opportunity to use our God given talent because we are preparing ourselves for something we deem more important, the reason why Yeshua taught do not bury the dead, get married, please your parents goals for you, buy a piece of land etc. And then say it is well with my soul as I am caring for the blessings bestowed on me, instead of starting on my journey God has in plan for us… Following the route the Spirit guides me on is better than following the route I prefer creating as I can experience the tangle results of my own routes but do not consider the intangible results of the path the Spirit guides us in… Be the 5 wise maidens and keep our lamp filled…
How wonderful to have a Mapmaker Who knows where we are, to direct us to the right route, watching out that we do not take the wrong turn/s, by giving us CLEAR signs that we need to take heed to watch out for, along the way; to proceed cautiously. Thank You, ABBA.