Sackcloth and Ashes: Travels with Job (1)
He said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I shall return there. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.” Job 1:21 NASB
Taken away – The story of Job is too easy. I don’t mean to suggest that it isn’t tragic or full of struggle. What I mean is that we don’t really appreciate its personal depth. We read through the book as though it were an O’Henry short story or a Cecil B. DeMille screenplay. It’s just too much over the edge for us. Our imaginations can’t fathom multiple messengers of doom showing up one after another with terrible news. We have Social Security, life insurance, Medicare, and government entitlements. We’re protected. Even after disasters, we’ve got FEMA. We don’t connect to the conversations of Job’s friends in a world where Christianity preaches blessings and love while enthroning celebrity success and status. We don’t understand the torment of the soul because we can read the entire account in less than two hours. The story is much more like watching a television drama without the commercials. We know the good guys will win. It’s another version of tragedy followed by heroic resolve resulting in victorious restitution. We’ve seen it so many times in the movies that we’re immune to its real impact. We live at the top of the human food chain. We don’t know Rwanda, Kosovo or Somalia or a hundred other hellholes in the world where no one cares and no one comes to help. The story of Job is too easy because it is so removed from life as we know it. It is just a story.
My guess is that most of us know nothing about the Job saga except the first few verses and the last paragraph. Job had everything and was a good man. Satan took it all away and Job suffered. God restored him with even more than before. That’s the kind of Job story we want to hear. It’s a Biblical fairy tale. An innocent victim meets terrible tragedy but is rescued by a benevolent God resulting in opulent abundance. We might wonder for just a moment why God seems so fickle and uncaring at the beginning, but since Job wins in the end, we withhold our complaint.
Until it becomes real. Until the bad news arrives at our doorstep. Then Job’s story takes on a different perspective. Then Job invites me to a banquet of sackcloth and ashes.
Why is the story of Job even in the Bible? It doesn’t seem to offer much comfort. After all, it’s about undeserved tragedy. I have often wondered if God’s restoration could possibly mitigate the sorrow of losing all your children. I’m quite sure that is a pain I would carry to the grave, even if I had a new family and a new fortune. Job’s story certainly doesn’t seem to offer any really acceptable answers. What kind of rationale is it for God to say, “I’m God. You’re not. Don’t question me”? It’s a slap in the face of the human idea of fairness without any apologies. It’s an insult to a man who stands before his children’s graves. So what if He’s God. Don’t I still deserve some recognition?
And then there are Job’s friends. They seem so well intentioned. They talk like a lot of friends that I have known. “What do you mean you’re innocent? Look how you’re being treated. God doesn’t bring havoc and misery on the righteous. You must have done something wrong. Stop denying it!” I’ve heard that before. And I’ve heard the corollary preached from one pulpit after another: Be good, and God will bless you. Sin, and God will punish you. It’s the Santa Claus god keeping track of your good and bad deeds and meting out the consequences. That’s a god we can understand. That makes sense. But a God who allows the righteous to suffer and forgives evil sinners? No, that can’t be right!
Job just doesn’t satisfy. Until Job’s story becomes my story.
There are a lot of theological discussions about Job. There are plenty of commentaries and sermons and lectures about the texts. But I wonder if they are all sort of beside the point. Maybe Job’s story is intentionally incomprehensible until we step into Job’s shoes. Maybe the only reason Job is there is to give us a place to go when life turns into something we just can’t get our minds around. Maybe Job is just an introduction to our primal cry when we are swallowed up in catastrophe. Then Job is for everyone who has ever suffered. Then I lay aside all the twisting theological puzzles and simply say, “God, I don’t get it. Life sucks. I need help. Why have You done this?” Maybe Job is just emotional theology.
We need to take Job in longer doses, say a year or two at a time. We need to see that Job is not about a two-hour documentary. Job is about the day-after-day-slow-bleeding-while-life-just-keeps-sliding-down-into-the-pit kind of living. Job is for people who have spent some real time with loss and pain. Job is for the man or woman who has heard the howling silence.
After awhile, we discover a pattern in the process of long-term suffering. It goes something like this:
Catastrophe
Acceptance
Heroism
Resolve
Belief
Erosion
Questioning
Silence
Despair
Rebuilding
Faith
Trust
Acceptance
Contentment
This pattern does not happen in an hour. This takes a long time. And the longer it takes, the deeper the questions become. If you want to reach the end—contentment—then you must be willing to travel a road that goes beyond the horizon—a road that leads through the valley of the shadow of death. Job is really a story about the grave, in unexpected stages. With that in mind, it’s worth serious investigation.
Catastrophe
The news arrives. Accident. Illness. Injury. Victim. Disaster. A car comes out of nowhere and you end up in a wheel chair. The doctor says, “It’s cancer.” The attorney tells you the embezzler took it all and the IRS still wants its money. Someone shoots your son in a drive by. A hurricane destroys your home and your crops. Terrorists explode a bomb in the mall and your family disappears in the rubble. Every day the news presents us the grist of the Job-mill. Life is a nightmare. All of our human efforts at protection of people and property are only finite. There is no such thing as real security in this world.
When Job visits our own lives, the shocking reality of our vulnerability is uncovered. The myth is shattered. We are not in control. We are at risk. Life is not about eternal safety. It is about faithful response. This is the first emotion of the Job saga. “The Lord gives. The Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.” When life mounts a frontal attack and slams us with the fist of finitude, Job points the way. I came here with nothing. I leave here with nothing. What I have in the meanwhile is all on loan. And every loan can be recalled. The first stage is a deep reality check. What made me think I had control in the first place?
Most of us can get past the arrival of the bad news. Most, but not all. Sometimes the news just derails us forever. We are unable to accept the “nothing to nothing” truth about living. Our sense of fairness clouds our perception of reality and we spend the rest of our waiting time angry or depressed or both. We can’t pick up and go on. It’s not the way we thought things were supposed to be. We actually believe we deserve better. We have forgotten that in a totally random universe (if you don’t believe in God), anything can happen. Random means “doesn’t have to have a reason.” And if you don’t like a universe without God, then try the Biblical view where Qohelet says, “Man does not know whether it will be love or hatred; anything awaits him.” Pretty much the same conclusion. The first step is the same for one reason. We need the “life’s supposed to be fair” nonsense kicked out of us.
When we get stuck at the beginning of this road, life becomes a bitter experience. God becomes an unfaithful accomplice. We decide to hold Him accountable for our emotional immaturity and a long battle ensues. We live on the tragic edge, withholding growth as petulant recompense for sorrow. The longer we stay here, the more we succumb to a god of our own design, one who would never have done what was done. In the end, suffering becomes a familiar and comfortable choice to avoid confronting the God Who is. But there is no life in this option. The universe is not interested in our definition of fair. The universe does not bend to our notion of justice and purpose. To hold God accountable for what we consider appropriate property management is to misunderstand completely the difference between Creator and created. Job does not make this mistake. Job sees that there is no guarantee for our right-to-use what God places in our hands. God gives and, because He is Creator and Giver, He can take away. His decisions do not diminish His authority nor impugn His sovereignty. And they do not make Him evil. Lesson Number One: I am not God.
Confronted with tragedy, some of us take the heroic option. Human beings have an incredible capacity for heroic action in the midst of pain. Disasters of natural or human origin are a call to arms. Our deepest sympathies and greatest virtues flow to the surface and reach out to others. Even when the catastrophe is quite personal, we suddenly discover wellsprings of emotional reserve and heroic resolve. Incredible achievements often result. But it doesn’t last. Life is entropic. It slips back toward the valley. Human beings are not designed to permanently occupy the mountaintops in that adrenaline-laced rarified air of the hero. Human beings can climb great peaks but they can only live and grow in the shadowed valleys. They must come down to survive.
Job stands at the side of the mountain trail and points down toward the valley. Acceptance is the beginning of truth. Denial is the pathway to despair. God restructured the fallen universe so that pain has purpose. It might not always seem redemptive. It might not always seem rational. But pain always moves us toward confrontation with divinity. It is precisely the unreasonableness of pain that brings God into focus. Pain confronts us with our finitude, our inability to control the world. We discover that we are thrown into circumstances that are quite beyond us. So pain pushes back the curtain of this world and demands that we stare into the world beyond the human horizon.
Next comes acceptance.
Tomorrow.
Topical Index: Job 1:21, taken away, catastrophe
Great pattern Skip. In just 3 seconds, going through that list, I reviewed something that happened to me 25 years ago that spanned about 15 years or so… it fits perfectly… just last night I said to a friend: “all that as it happened… that’s fine with me…”… pure Contentment…
It seems Job understood some culpability to his demise. He does state what he greatly feared and dreaded had come upon him. He was a righteous man but human . Fear is the sand in the machinery of life and over time it can grind things to a halt. (Fear not) is a constant command throughout the Bible. Maybe Job had it all but but had a lingering growing fear that over time that he could lose it. When you have family that see no importance to walking righteously and love the things of the world it can be wearing and heartbreaking.
I think Paul sums it up in Colossians 3:3, We have died and our life is hidden with Christ in God.Sometimes we forget our deadness and try living outside of Yeshua.He has truly overcome the world.
This was amazing….and riveting. Because it is where I am living. Now. For the last seven years it has been a Job experience. I have walked in Job’s shoes – I want to say – literally. Yahovah has restored my first born and his family in many ways, but now He has taken my youngest – and he won’t be coming back anytime soon. My heart keeps screaming out – NO MORE!!! NO MORE!!!! IT’s NOT FAIR!!!! I TRY SO HARD!!! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!!!???
Even though I silently moan and outwardly scream…the answers do not come, the ministry that we began with such hopes is dismantled and lays in ruins, my oldest is still in prison, my youngest is still dead and my heart feels like it has been ripped out and shredded. It hurts. Really hurts. And yet…. there is something there…still. A flicker…
Crumbled upon the floor… I try to breathe…and then I take a deep breath….inhale, exhale…inhale, exhale….and try to remember “I AM NOT GOD”. I try to remember (and am constantly reminded by good friends) of all the beautiful and comforting scriptures that should be able to help me through this …. but they are not comforting – they are almost like slaps in the face. All of the human emotions and defenses kick into gear and I question, demand and curse! Like I said, it’s just not FAIR. ……..
But then, I remember I’m NOT God. He DOES give and DOES take….and I am not God.
And while that actually is not the blanket of comfort I need at this time…it IS a quiet reassurance that He is in charge …. at least someone is! It certainly is not me. Maybe if all of what we have gone through would have come all at once – I would be further down the list that you have put forth Skip….but now, I have had to skip the bottom of the list and go back up to the top…one more time…and start over. Maybe “rebuilding” is the only constant in my life.
Pam I can relate… How do we start praying for our friends as Job did to restore a mental or spiritual balance?
Thank you, Pam, for speaking for all the silent ones. Thank you for touching your hurt; it has touched my heart. I am crying with you, and others who are crying, too. It is NOT fair! This totally sucks. God’s response to all this was to sacrifice His Son, too. Speechless.
Reality hurts.
And as Skip mentioned so well: “God restructured the fallen universe
so that pain has purpose.”
Job, like the entire Bible, is written for man’s realization of what is . . . and
what can be.
At the end of the day, each of us chooses a path in the midst of all that life brings forth.
I’ve often suspected that Job’s inner being was tuned into what Paul wrote 4000 years later
about the person who choses Christ: “for it is God who works in you to will and to act according
to His good purpose.” Phil 2:13
Job was led to understand reality. Pain has a purpose. Job watched God use his pain.
And look where it got him: “My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.” Job 42:8
Job received a new life!
“Trust and obey, for there’s no other way, to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.” When I sang that song as an adolescent in our humble little independent Baptist church, it was absolutely meaningless to me. Happiness. Just a two-step jig. Actually, it was more like a ten-step jig: attend services three times a week, keep your hair above your ears (or your dresses below your knees), read ONLY from the King James Bible, and don’t drink, swear, or chew (or go with girls that do.). Oh, and TITHE! You know the jig. Bingo. You’re happy. Maybe that’s part of the reason why my teenage years were filled with alcohol, smoking, porn, and rebellion. I was filled with religion, but religion certainly didn’t fill me. But then I found Jesus, packaged with 1800 years of cellophane dogma. Then came Bible college, marriage, children, seminary, more children, ministry, and more children. Just when life was at its peak, the rug of religion got pulled out from under me. “OK, God, I can handle this once.” God is good, right? Faithful? Loving? Compassionate? Then came round two. My idealized (and sanitized) form of Christianity as exemplified by Chuck Swindol, Charles Ryrie, Charles Stanley, Tony Evans, Rick Warren, et al., finally came crashing to the ground. The sheep of my flock became the wolves and literally destroyed my reputation, my job, and my sanity. “God, what the HELL are you doing?” (yes I’m sure David would have said that if it was in his vocabulary.) Frankly, to be honest, life sucks right now. But, I also have a calm sense of assurance that God is leading me in the right direction.
That little word “trust”. Something I haven’t quite figured out yet, right? Maybe. I think it might have more to do with the object of my trust. What is it I am really living for? How much hell do I have to go through before I figure it out?
Skip writes: “When we get stuck at the beginning of this road, life becomes a bitter experience. God becomes an unfaithful accomplice. We decide to hold Him accountable for our emotional immaturity and a long battle ensues. We live on the tragic edge, withholding growth as petulant recompense for sorrow. The longer we stay here, the more we succumb to a god of our own design, one who would never have done what was done.” That’s me. He continues, “But pain always moves us toward confrontation with divinity.” So while I might be tempted to say to myself, “IT’S NOT ABOUT YOU, STUPID”, it is truly about me–how I think, how I feel, how I respond, how I can humble myself to the point of death, even death on a cross. Just how do I view God in and with this mortal flesh? Isn’t Messiah a reflection of Job or vice versa? Aren’t we called to enter into HIS sufferings? And for what purpose? The suffering certainly points us in the right direction, if we let it. Give me some dust and ashes.
And what better person to learn it from than one who has been down the road before us? Skip, I thoroughly appreciate your grounded-in-life reflections. I’m looking forward to your montage on Job’s experiences. I’m sure I’ll have lots to learn!
It was my honor to meet you and spend a little time together. I look forward to your reflections on the rest of this journey.
It is interesting (as we hopefully will see) that acceptance is listed twice among the 14 patterns in the process of long-term suffering. It appears second after the initial incident (catastrophe) and again, second to the last, just before contentment. I wonder if we don’t often get the two confused and think we are close to the end when we have really only just begun the process. I do not believe the adage that “time heals all wounds”, nor is time a good indicator of where we are, where we should be or where we want to be. Our healing is in His time, which is to say, not on our timetable. I suspect one day all this nonesense of Daylight Savings Time will end and not only will there be one God, one Messiah and one people, but also one time zone…YST.
Thanks Skip for taking the time to take on this important issue and to take us with you on the journey. I suspect that all of us have either been on that thorny path, are on it now or will one day find ourselves thrust onto it. It may help knowing that there is an end of our suffering, as well as an ending to our suffering.